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Sweet sorrow

I hope I showed no outward signs of the wrench I felt when one of my oldest and dearest friends told me that she and her 12-year old son will be making aliyah in two weeks' time. I can't say it came as a surprise, as B. has been talking about it off and on for as long as I've known her (which is 30 years) and more so ever since her marriage failed 2 years ago, and I can't say I didn't think she would do it; it's just that...I never thought she would go this soon. I thought perhaps she would wait until J. is a little older, like 18 or 25 or 41 or whenever it may be that he's ready to fly the nest.

Poor J! He doesn't want to go. All his friends and most of his family are here, and he doesn't want to be consoled by the thought that he'll soon make new friends and meet other -more distant- family members in Israel.

And poor me! I will miss them terribly when they go; they live only a few streets away from me and I'm so used to dropping round...

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enigmaticblues
Oct. 29th, 2010 12:41 am (UTC)
*hugs* It's always hard to say goodbye to friends.
gamiila
Oct. 29th, 2010 10:56 am (UTC)
It is. I know I'm being selfish, but since the untimely deaths of my BFF and Joost in recent years, I had hoped I could keep those few old friends I had left close...On the upside though, B.'s departure means I'll soon have another holiday address in Israel.
suze2000
Oct. 31st, 2010 10:13 am (UTC)
I had to google making aliyah.

It's so hard to hang on to friends over the years... I often wonder who I'll have when I'm older (apart from my husband) and wish I was putting more effort into bonding with people I know right now.

*hugs* I'm very melancholy today.
gamiila
Nov. 1st, 2010 09:51 am (UTC)
I'm very melancholy today.

As was I when I wrote in my LJ ;-)

It used to be so easy to make friends when I was younger; but when I look back over the last 10 years or so, I'll have to admit that I've made plenty of acquaintances, but no new friends. And I don't think I would have even realised this sad state of affairs if my two closest friends had lived; but they didn't, and now I'm terrified of losing any more. Also because I'm on my own, which makes my friends the most important people in the world to me.
suze2000
Nov. 2nd, 2010 08:07 am (UTC)
Yes, I agree that my friends are becoming more important to me than family. I had a dream this week in which I had an adorable little boy and my father was enchanted by him. And then I woke up and I had neither a father or a son. Broke my heart. And I felt like I had no future and half my past was already gone. When I told Darren about it he pointed out that no matter what, we were going to have to find our own future with or without children. Which of course is right. It didn't make it any less of a blow though, considering that I had a second miscarriage last month.

All that's to say: I understand how you feel about the difference between friends and acquaintances. I often regret moving from Perth, where I feel my closest and most steadfast friends are.
gamiila
Nov. 2nd, 2010 12:28 pm (UTC)
considering that I had a second miscarriage last month.

Oh no! Oh sweetheart, I am so very, very sorry to hear this; I know how much it would mean to you to have a child to love and care for. And I hope with all my heart that that dream will come true for you one day.
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