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The assessment is set for Tuesday noon. The invitation arrived today, with the advice to look at their website and familiarise myself with the type of tests they're likely to have me do. Now I'm all deflated and insecure...it's numerical tests. I'm ever so bad at those. I'm dyscalculic -- it's like being dyslexic, only with numbers. I can't do arithmetic for toffee...So I did a few and the results were as expected: my score is way below the norm. Guess I won't get to be an M, after all. Wonder if it's worth keeping the appointment?

sanda56, your tape arrived today as well, and it plays, so don't you worry! And don't worry about it missing the first few minutes, either: I-uhm...I couldn't contain my curiosity and downloaded the ep a few days ago, so yeah, I saw the TARDIS go out with a bang...only not! God, that had me on the edge of my seat, gnashing my teeth and pulling my hair out in clumps the first time. What a shocker!
Funny thing is, the more I watch the ep, the more I cry. I sat through it almost completely dry-eyed on the first viewing; now I'm bawling my eyes out from the moment Capt. Jack says "See you in hell!" pretty much through to the end. Doctor, my Doctor! How I miss you! Whatever will I do with myself on a Saturday night?

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vegmb
Jun. 22nd, 2005 07:26 pm (UTC)
Yes you should still keep the appointment! Work on the tests a bit more, it can't hurt to practice, but don't stress over them. Just see how it goes, but you will never know if you don't try.
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 07:52 pm (UTC)
Oh, of course I'll go, there's no question I won't. I'll just have to brace myself for impact.

And who knows: I might even surprise myself. Meanwhile, I'm going to study like mad on those tests.
vegmb
Jun. 22nd, 2005 07:59 pm (UTC)
Good! I just don't want to see you dash your hopes and not show up.
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 08:08 pm (UTC)
And be kicking myself for not having given it a try for the rest of my life? That thought appeals even less to me than the dreaded Numerical Test!
calove
Jun. 22nd, 2005 07:56 pm (UTC)
You have to go - you'll be 'what if'-ing forever if you don't.

Besides, I'm sure it can't be just about Maths. I'd have thought there were a lot more important attributes a spy needs that you have in spades.
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 08:11 pm (UTC)
They've lopped in in half -- first the Maths, and then, if you test positive, latyer on in the procedure they'll have you come back for the language based\visual problem solving tests. Why couldn't they have done them the other way around? I always score way above average on those!

But yeah, yeah, you're right. I'll go (and be humiliated)...
calove
Jun. 22nd, 2005 08:17 pm (UTC)
Huh! Sounds arse about face to me. How much adding up does 007 do?

I'm completely sure you won't be humiliated. And you have the site and the examples to get some practise in.

If you don't get further than you did your best knowing it was your worst subject through no fault of your own.

But just think how good you'll feel when you get called back :)
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 09:06 pm (UTC)
But just think how good you'll feel when you get called back :)

Oh please, by all that's holy, let it be so! I can't stand another second in my current position, let alone another 6 months or so...
hesadevil
Jun. 22nd, 2005 10:05 pm (UTC)
You've applied to be a spy? This comes as news to me, I've been deliberately avoiding LJ recently so have missed all this.

Picking up on curiouswombat's suggestion - why don't you ask if you can do the assessment in reverse, explaining the problem with the mathslexia thingy? Don't they let you use a calculator or computer? Maybe the maths test is for submitting your expenses purposes, in which case, you'd definitely use a computer?

gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 10:15 pm (UTC)
You've applied to be a spy?

Sort of, yeah. There was this programme on the telly not too long ago, that first put the idea in my head. Then, when the opportunity presented itself...

But apparently, there's quite a number of interested parties, and so they've decided to hire an agency to run this assessment course for them -- and they're starting with the maths tests.
curiouswombat
Jun. 22nd, 2005 08:21 pm (UTC)
I can't do arithmetic for toffee

Well that's a bit of a bugger - but don't let it put you off totally.

If you do fail it perhaps you could ask if you can do part two anyway - explain that numbers aren't your strong point! It's suprising how often, if confronted with someone who says 'OK I know this is your system, but I'm asking you to let me go around the rules, not exactly break them', officials will admire your persistence and ability to think for yourself, and let you do what you ask.

My sister got in to train as a nurse by a similar bit of effrontery, and is a very successful nurse educator herself now.
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 09:12 pm (UTC)
Oh, I am going to mention it in passing to the assessor, so that he/she can take it into consideration. Unfortunately, dyscalculia isn't as widely known and accepted a disability as dyslexia is. My maths teachers in school just accused me of being stupid and lazy, e.g.
sanda56
Jun. 22nd, 2005 08:29 pm (UTC)
, your tape arrived today as well, and it plays...

Phew! Do you know, I was convinced there was a problem with sound. Living in the dark ages as usual! ;)

I'd gathered you'd downloaded it, and ironically I did too. Just couldn't live without it. ;)

I'm bawling my eyes out from the moment Capt. Jack says "See you in hell!" pretty much through to the end.

Yes, 'cos the first time you see it you think "Oh sexy!", but then you realise he's saying goodbye properly because he knows he's going to die. *sob*

I have this routine of starting to cry when Lynda dies, which carries on into Jack dying, coming back to life and... well right to the end really. I love a good blub, me!

Hope the assessment goes well tomorrow. :)

gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 09:17 pm (UTC)
Yes, 'cos the first time you see it you think "Oh sexy!", but then you realise he's saying goodbye properly because he knows he's going to die. *sob*

Though he couldn't have wished for a better death -- defiant to the end, the last man standing goes down in a blaze of glory. I bet he never even wished for that Martini...

And then, restored to life, the look on his face as he watches the TARDIS leave without him...What do you think, is he going to wait till Christmas for his friends to come back, or will he use the extrapolator to try and find them? (That's assuming he still has it, of course).
sanda56
Jun. 22nd, 2005 10:13 pm (UTC)
...the look on his face as he watches the TARDIS leave without him...

I think he looks like wants to burst into tears, except he's too darn manly. I'm getting misty-eyed just thinking about it...

What do you think, is he going to wait till Christmas for his friends to come back...

He's not going to be in the first story block of the new series. (Whatever that means.) I imagine he'll slide back into his con-man ways and just bump into the Dr and Rose somewhere unlikely. Tescos perhaps? ;)
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 10:19 pm (UTC)
He's not going to be in the first story block of the new series.

He's not? But I thought the Beeb said he and Rose were going to be in all 13 episodes?

Damn! I want Capt. Jack! It's bad enough I'm having to get used to a new Doctor, without Jack going AWOL as well. :(
sanda56
Jun. 23rd, 2005 07:53 am (UTC)
Couldn't remember where I saw the article, but I think this is it

...without Jack going AWOL as well. :(

I know! *sob*

Look, you've got me going again! ;)
gamiila
Jun. 23rd, 2005 10:40 am (UTC)
LOL! at the willing to get naked again-quote...If only the Beeb would be willing to show it!
bogwitch
Jun. 22nd, 2005 10:21 pm (UTC)
Reminds me of when I nearly applied for the civil service Fasttrack, the tests scared to living daylights out of me and I didn't bother in the end.
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2005 10:28 pm (UTC)
I'm always doing things I'm scared of, so...I guess I'll go! But keep your fingers crossed, eh?
bogwitch
Jun. 22nd, 2005 10:33 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I will. It's likely I'm on the jiob hunt too.
curiouswombat
Jun. 22nd, 2005 11:04 pm (UTC)
Good grief! Are they going to be that petty over some naughty words and tentacle porn? I don't believe it! (In my best Victor Meldrew voice.)
bogwitch
Jun. 23rd, 2005 07:46 am (UTC)
Stuff 'em.
gamiila
Jun. 23rd, 2005 06:19 am (UTC)
It's likely I'm on the jiob hunt too.

Strangely, I'm not surprised to hear that. Good luck, eh?
bogwitch
Jun. 23rd, 2005 10:31 am (UTC)
Let's hope we both get something decent and soon.
gamiila
Jun. 23rd, 2005 10:49 am (UTC)
Amen.
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