January 7th, 2004

gamiila sig #2

I feel fat

Why won't this flu' or cold or whatever it is leave me alone? I'm so tired of having a sore throat, tired of having blocked-up nasal passages, tired of feeling all muscle-achey and tired...

I knew I wasn't feeling 100% when I went into the office on Monday, but I reckoned I'd be alright if I just got on with it. More fool me. I feel worse than I did then, but at least now I look better. I got up this morning and decided that some pampering was in order, so I've just had a facial and am currently debating whether I'll have my legs waxed next. Being half-Asian (though I don't look it) means I have very little body hair and so I've never had my legs or any other part of me waxed before, but it looks interesting and I'm kind of curious if it really hurts all that much, so...maybe.

Casting a cold, hard, critical look at myself, I can't but conclude that I really, really, need to lose a few pounds. I've resigned myself to the fact that I'll never be a size 10 anymore long ago, but there's no reason I should just give up and let myself go much beyond 14 or 16. And even that last one is questionable. If I allow myself to go up to 16, what's to stop me from eventually reaching 20 or more?

But...how do I achieve a slenderer me? I know that in order to lose weight, one has to eat healthily and in moderation (so bye-bye chocolate!), and take some, or even a lot of, exercise. But I hate working out! I know, because I've tried. So many times in the past, I've signed up for membership of a gym, and started on a round of aerobics and/or weight-lifting, but I always felt so silly doing that and after a while, I invariably stopped going. And don't talk to me about jogging! I tried it once, and gave myself a whiplash stumbling over a f*cking dog. So what do I do? How do I go back to being all svelte and sleek without having to take up jogging or some other sweaty regime? Liposuction? No thanks. I've seen the way it's done on TV, how the surgeon hoovers away inside you, treating your body like a slab of meat, and the only word that springs to mind to accurately describe the process is ewwww.

db2305 advocates taking up rowing, and that activity certainly seems to keep her looking all nice and trim and gorgeous, but I don't know...Wonder if I can get a tapeworm from somewhere?
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