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Memorial service for Peronne

Peronne's former co-workers and friends at the UN are organising a memorial service for her on May 17th, at the church on Lexington she volunteered at in 2001. This morning, one of their number sent me an e-mail and asked:

"Would you be willing to come, stay over at my house and say something?"

Would I like to come and be part of this memorial service for my best friend, whose passing I still mourn every day? Of course I would! But at such short notice, arranging for a reasonably priced flight to NYC will not be easy. On the one hand...I really shouldn't let financial considerations enter into it, and pass up on this chance of coming together with people who knew and loved her too, and wish to celebrate her life. On the other, though...having checked the usual websites, I'm not sure if I can afford to spend 700 euros on a 2-day visit.

And say something? I can't hear her name, or see it written down, without bursting into tears.

I miss her so, so much.


May. 3rd, 2007 02:05 am (UTC)
Is it possible you would be eligible for a bereavement fare?

That's the best I can come up with, except that I'm sorry you are still suffering so terribly. *hugs*
May. 3rd, 2007 06:15 am (UTC)
Well, it's only been 9 weeks...these things take time, I suppose. Of course, I've known bereavement before (grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins), but never someone as close to me as this. A best friend is special, and when they die, they leave a big hole in the fabric of your everyday life.

I'm sure that, as a vicar, Pee didn't view death as the end, but rather as a beginning, and I do take some comfort from that. Doesn't stop me missing her, though -- her voice, her laugh, her mad ideas...It's hard to believe she's not just a phone call away anymore.

Is it possible you would be eligible for a bereavement fare?

Honestly, I don't know. I'd never even heard of bereavement fares until a few weeks ago, but I will look into it.