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I need to lose weight. Seriously, I do. I'm far too heavy. Of course I knew I was too heavy, as over the last ten years I've steadily progressed from a healthy size 12 to a depressing size 16, but I was somehow able to close my eyes to it, not think about it, not do anything about it. But this afternoon, when they put me on the scales during my preop examination, and I saw the needle point towards the 90 kilograms...I literally fell off them in shock. I'm 20 kilograms overweight -- that's a whopping 3 stone, or almost!

I am deeply, deeply ashamed.

How do I get rid of this excess baggage before the end of the year? Will starving myself, or eating nothing but soup and yoghurt from this day forward, do the trick? Should I join WeightWatchers? Exercise? I hate exercise if it means running or weight-lifting or both...How about if I take up tae kwon do?

Anyway, while waiting to speak to the anaesthesiologist, I leafed through my file. Decyphering my orthopaedic surgeon's handwriting wasn't easy, but as far as I could tell he intends to do a ligament-plasty and something I could only read as 'reving' (though that's not a proper Dutch word and I have no idea what is meant by it) of the plantar tendon when I go under the knife on July 9th. Not a word about removing the exostosis for which I had initially been referred to him. So I went down and talked to his assistant, who promised to pass on my question and get back to me as soon as possible, on my mobile. Of course, I haven't heard a peep yet.

Coming back up to Anaesthesiology, I was just in time to see the anaesthesiologist step out onto the hallway and call my name. My consultation lasted all of 5 minutes, and we agreed that I would have the surgery under a 'regional' anaesthetic, i.e., I will get an epidural and my bottom half will become immune to pain for about 3 hours.

Then I was sent up to the ward for a little chat with one of the nurses, a surly young man who first kept me waiting for 40 minutes, then went over the forms I'd filled in at home, kept coming back to the fact that I hadn't listed any medication (I'm not ill! why should I have any?), and finally snapped that I would be responsible for bringing my own crutches. I was flabbergasted: they don't hand them out in Dutch hospitals? Thank heaven I've still got the ones Manchester Royal Infirmary generously donated to me back in October 2004.

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hesadevil
Jun. 21st, 2007 03:23 pm (UTC)
Have a look at calorie-count. Create a free account and it'll help you plan the daily intake of calories (and change your eating habits to a healthier one) to help you reach your target weight by the target date (though I think 3 stone in less than 6 months is too fast). It allows for a 'sedentary' life style, though I'd advise taking daily exercise that you know you can keep up and not skip - skipping is an ideal form of exercise, as is walking, taking the stairs instead of the lift etc. I wouldn't advise any form of weight training, that will just add muscle.

Best of luck.
gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 04:21 pm (UTC)
OK, I've signed up for it -- and am relieved to find that I qualify as only moderately overweight! And also quite surprised to learn that I'm 'small frame', when I've always thought of myself as quite sturdily built. But my fingers overlap when I encircle my wrist, so 'small frame' is what I am, apparently.

I need to lose 25 kilos, between now and June 5th next year. Do you think I'll manage it?
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enigmaticblues
Jun. 21st, 2007 05:02 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I think everyone I've known who struggled with weight went through something similar. It's easier just to let it go, until you get hit smack in the face with it. My roommate has had a lot of success with Weight Watchers, and we both do a "Weight Loss Yoga for Dummies" DVD, as well as walking and some other videos. The nice thing is that you can do them at home, and don't have to go to a gym.
gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:12 pm (UTC)
Gyms don't work for me, either; but an exercise DVD might...thanks! I'll look into it.
enigmaticblues
Jun. 21st, 2007 05:04 pm (UTC)
And I almost forgot...There's a group that one of my friends started, its_monday, to support healthy lifestyles and weight loss. You may find helpful tips and support there.
gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:13 pm (UTC)
...and thanks again!
evenstar_estel
Jun. 21st, 2007 05:15 pm (UTC)
Eat 80% fruits and veggies at each meal. Cut out all dairy, shellfish, red meats, pork, sugar and prepackaged meals and increase your exercise a whole lot.
gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:14 pm (UTC)
Worth a try, I suppose, although I do so love my shellfish...you certain sure they're not good for me?
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psubrat
Jun. 21st, 2007 05:48 pm (UTC)
I would recommend The South Beach Diet. Which isn't really a diet at all once you get past the first two weeks (and that's breaking your body of it's need for bad carbs). It's a change in lifestyle. Even if you don't do the first two weeks (which is strictly protein), and follow phase 2, you should still have success.

Also, I would suggest joining its_monday (tell opalescence I sent you). It's a healthy lifestyle support group. People post recipes, references, and exercise ideas.

Hope this helps.
gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:18 pm (UTC)
Thank you for those suggestions. I've heard many good things of the South Beach Diet by people who've tried it, so maybe I will give it a try. I might do it whilst I'm recuperating, and have little else to distract me from it. ;-)
curiouswombat
Jun. 21st, 2007 05:53 pm (UTC)
I would suggest having a look at its_monday as enigmaticblues did. I find the support there, and my own decision to log my weight there weekly, very useful!

Personally I am back on a high protein low refined carbs regime - all my carbs come from fruit and veg. Best reading, for me, was Neris and India's book. Full of advice like 'It isn't a treat if it is actually going to make your knees hurt!'

Talking of joints - the regional anaeasthetic means that you can ask the surgeon directly about the exostosis as he works!
gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:29 pm (UTC)
I asked the assistant whether I would see the surgeon before the op. She said he would probably come and see me while I was being prepared. "Okay," I said, "shall I ask him then?" "Oh no," she said, "he won't like to have to change his plans that late in the day. Better if I speak to him beforehand."

I'm getting really nervous about the ligament plasty, and the Internet is no help. There's tons of people out there who've had the same procedure and complain about how the surgeon's botched it, and months after the surgery they were worse off -- I don't know if I'm ready for that kind of disappointment.

I'll definitely check out its_monday.
elsaf
Jun. 21st, 2007 05:58 pm (UTC)
I'll third the recommendation for its_monday. If you're a joiner (that is, if you have a good tolerance for going to meetings and such), Weight Watchers is a very good program. Personally, the meetings drive me nuts and make me want to eat things.

There are any number of online diet sites, if you're more of a do-it-yourselfer.
gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:31 pm (UTC)
I'm not sure if I'm a joiner, but I'm definitely not a do-it-yourselfer. Left to my own devices, chances are I'll revert back to my old bad habits within a week or two.
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gamiila
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:35 pm (UTC)
You're right. I'm not going to beat myself over the head if I don't lose massive amounts of weight, but I am going to try and get down a size by Christmas. I think that should be doable.
diachrony
Jun. 22nd, 2007 03:24 am (UTC)
Another one from its_monday here, although I may be the first one to mention that many of the posters there f'lock, so if you look it over w/o joining you'll mostly see posts from just the few of us who don't! (F'locking is entirely optional there, for the comfort of the individual poster.)

I use CalorieKing all the time to find the calories and macronutrient breakdown in my foods ... it's really convenient and userfriendly and easy to adjust for particular serving sizes.

I do think losing a size by Xmas is a very reasonable goal.
gamiila
Jun. 22nd, 2007 08:28 pm (UTC)
I do think losing a size by Xmas is a very reasonable goal.

Thanks! I'm certainly going to try and reach it.

As for its_monday, I'll just be watching it for now, as I'll be going into hospital soon and won't have access to the Internet for at least a week or two after -- I won't be able to contribute to it for a while yet.
freakspawn
Jun. 23rd, 2007 10:11 am (UTC)
Ok. Not sure if I can contribute much with advice seeing as I've been steadily losing weight for the past year without changing my diet at all. I eat so unhealthily, pizza, pasta, stodgy food and drink a horrendous amount of Guinness. However. I do know that just uping the amount of time you walk on a daily basis by about 20 minutes makes a huge difference. I think it's the constant increase that's the key.
gamiila
Jun. 23rd, 2007 10:53 am (UTC)
And of course, over the last two and a half years, walking recreationally has had to take somewhat of a backseat as most of the time it's been excruciatingly painful. I don't see this changing in my immediate future, but by winter or next spring, I should be able to go hiking again!
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