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One of the songs I like best in The Sound of Music is the one sung by Julie Andrews and Christopher Plummer, of which the refrain goes Somewhere in my youth, or childhood/I must have done something good...Well, lately I've been thinking that somewhere in my youth, or childhood, I must have done something very bad indeed. Nothing but bad stuff seems to happen to me.

First off, I just can't seem to find work; a situation that has been dragging on for a year and a half now. I am now entering into severe financial difficulty, and am kept awake worrying most nights.

Secondly, I lost another contact lens, 5 months after the last time this happened, which followed 5 months after the time before that. I can't afford to shell out another 255 euros for a replacement, so I've decided not to bother with getting one. I'd only lose it again, anyway.

Thirdly, and this is the clincher: earlier this week, I've been diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. I know it's not a death sentence, and with the proper care and medication, it needn't be the debilitating disease it once was, but still...it's something I could have done without.

I woke up a few weeks ago, and my knee hurt. Thinking I had probably lain on it funny, I ignored it and went about my routine as usual, until 3 days later, when the knee had swollen to twice its usual size and the pain become unbearable. I consulted my GP on the 5th day, who referred me to the orthopaedic consultant thinking it might be a problem with one of the menisci, but the X-ray didn't reveal any obvious injury to the bones; and so I had to wait for an MRI scan to be done, and then wait another 2 weeks for the orthopaedic consultant to return from his skiing holiday to give me the results. I was in excruciating pain for about 10 days, before the painkillers and anti-inflammatories started to kick in, and needed crutches to get around. Luckily, friends that live nearby were willing to help out with the groceries. I've been more or less alright for the last week, and can walk again unaided, though the stairs are still something of a trial (my leg won't bend very well). Anyway, the results from my MRI and blood tests have prompted the orthopaedic consultant to refer me to the rheumatologist, who I'll see in about 3 weeks' time. I expect to be fully recovered by then, but I'll keep the appointment anyway.


( 13 Speak Like A Child — Shout To The Top )
Mar. 16th, 2013 11:40 pm (UTC)
Oh, honey. ::hugs:: I hope your luck turns around soon. You deserve good things to happen.
Mar. 17th, 2013 07:26 am (UTC)
Thank you. I do, don't I? Unfortunately, I'm the one that's supposed to bring it about, but I'm afraid I'm very close to being out of ideas at the moment.

Oh well. I suppose I'll just keep plugging away at it. I'm sure things will turn out right in the end.
Mar. 17th, 2013 12:04 am (UTC)

This is me - giving you massive hugs!
Mar. 17th, 2013 07:27 am (UTC)
Thank you.
Mar. 17th, 2013 12:40 am (UTC)

It upsets me that you are going through such a rough patch. Take care of yourself. xxx
Mar. 17th, 2013 07:28 am (UTC)
Oh sweetie, I don't want you to be upset! Forget I spoke. Please. I'll be fine - and I will take care of myself, don't you worry!
Mar. 17th, 2013 11:03 am (UTC)
Oh hell, I'm so sorry about the arthritis. It's manageable (my muum has it) but never fun, and I can see how it would feel like the last straw at the moment.

I remember last time you got work you were doing some interesting volunteer stuff just before; is there any chance of finding something like that? I know it doesn't fix the money, which must be so worrying, but company just helps when you're feeling shit, you know?
Mar. 17th, 2013 04:41 pm (UTC)
Well, I am volunteering. It's about the only thing keeping me sane at the moment.
Mar. 17th, 2013 11:18 am (UTC)
Gimli speaks for me...

I'm so sorry that you are still not in work - and the RA is just one more thing you can do without. Hopefully it will settle completely this time, and the rheumatologist can help to prevent another flare-up.
Mar. 17th, 2013 04:53 pm (UTC)
The diagnosis has knocked me for six, I will admit. The thought that I could be chronically ill never entered my mind; I thought I'd just been a klutz as I usually am, and would only need to learn to be more careful in future.

But...it is what it is, and I'll follow the rheumatologist's advice to the letter. I don't ever want to experience pain like that again!
Mar. 17th, 2013 02:39 pm (UTC)
Yikes. I offer my empathy and sympathy for all of the above.
Mar. 17th, 2013 04:55 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much - it does help, knowing people are wishing you well.
Mar. 19th, 2013 12:35 pm (UTC)

I hate that you were in so much pain. Having a good relationship with a rheumatologist has been a huge help to me (osteoarthritis). I'm glad you're getting in to see someone soon.
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