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Work is a four-letter word

It had to happen sometime, of course, only I hadn't counted on it happening so soon: 8 months after starting in my new job, I've fallen seriously out of love with it. For months, my manager had been telling me what a great job I'd been doing, and how glad she was to have me on board. Then, 4 weeks ago, she came over. The first thing she told me when we met up that Monday morning, was that she was no longer my manager; that, in fact, she'd handed over the responsibility to someone called Jessica about 2 months previously. After that, for the rest of her week long stay, I hardly saw her, except when she came to hug me before getting in the taxi to take her to the airport and back to California. Thursday, a week and a half ago, around 5:30pm, she called me out of the blue, to give me my first mid-year review...and in the space of 7 minutes over the phone, proceeded to let me know that my work has been, in her estimation, unsatisfactory on every level. She took me completely by surprise, and I just couldn't believe my ears. I'd thought I was doing okay; in fact, she'd told me on numerous occasions that I was doing great, so this review, in which I scored 1.63 on a scale of 1-5, upset me greatly. So much so, that I couldn't stop the tears from falling after she'd hung up. Honestly, I was in pieces. My co-workers, from the CFO to the HR manager, were as shocked as I was when I told them what had just happened, and the latter advised me to request a) examples of my work not being up to scratch, and b) for an action plan to be put together, so that I could try to improve on those areas before my next review in December (presuming I won't be sacked before then). Which I did...but a week has gone by, and I've not heard back from her; nor have I ever heard a peep out of this Jessica, to whom I'm supposed to report.

Meanwhile, the company's gone through a rebranding exercise - we're no longer called Network Hardware Resale, but Curvature. The old name had to go as we're shifting our position from primarily being a reseller of refurbished and legacy network hardware to a solution-based IT company that also buys and sells refurbished and legacy network hardware. My job, as Services Administrator, is to work on the solution side of things, i.e. our trump card, our lifetime warranty and professional services programme.

Anyway, last week at the launch party, I got talking to a few people and was reliably informed that in Europe, we've been falling behind the projected figures for the sales of this programme over the last 2 quarters; and I think my bad review may owe more to this fact than to my actual performance, or lack of it -- if the figures don't pick up, and soon, they might decide to ditch me when my contract expires on December 1st, or perhaps even sooner. The review then, could be a first step in building the case against me, necessary under Dutch employment law.

BTW, the new name, Curvature? They spent 18 months and countless millions working with a 'leading global rebranding marketing company in LA' to come up with it; all the while stressing that our major push over the next few years will be to break into the eastern European market. You would think then, that these global rebranding experts would have tested out the name in that geographical area, wouldn't you? But it transpired they only tested it out on a panel of 400 people in the US, who apparently like that it stands for 'a measurement of change'. Too bad, then, that when it's pronounced in a Slavic accent, that meaning changes to "Whore Tours"...



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Jul. 19th, 2014 10:59 pm (UTC)
Wow, that's a curveball out of the blue!
Jul. 27th, 2014 08:56 am (UTC)
Wasn't it, just? Two weeks later, I'm still fuming!
Jul. 19th, 2014 11:27 pm (UTC)
Oh shit. I'm so sorry this is happening to you.
Jul. 27th, 2014 08:57 am (UTC)
Thanks for the sympathy!
Jul. 20th, 2014 05:59 am (UTC)
I'm honestly speechless. I'm sorry this is happening to you.
Jul. 27th, 2014 09:03 am (UTC)
Thank you. I still don't really know how best to deal with this - I like my job, but fearing they might kill off the programme and me with it leaves me feeling...what's the point of it all?
Jul. 27th, 2014 11:26 am (UTC)
And Darren is often frustrated with my reluctance to make a move from my current position. But it's safe, stable, I have seniority now and I don't think they can find a reason to let me go because you have to actually really act badly in the public service to get the sack.

None of that helps you, I'm afraid. If I was you I would start looking for a new position NOW. I know it's disheartening, but it seems to be the best move under the circumstances.

Many hugs and know that we are behind you 100%.
Jul. 20th, 2014 10:30 am (UTC)
Good Grief! It does sound as if you are being assessed more for the European division falling behind than your own abilities.

Get out quickly, I reckon - tell them you are embarrassed to have to tell people you work for a company called Whore Tours in your letter of resignation...
Jul. 27th, 2014 09:11 am (UTC)
I haven't decided on my next course of action yet (I've been too consumed with anger), but realistically, I don't think I've got much choice: better get back on that merry-go-round of looking for work again :-(
Jul. 20th, 2014 10:59 am (UTC)
Well, that's exactly how to not do a performance review, even if you weren't performing, which sounds unlikely. It should *never* come out of the blue as a total shock. This management situation sounds pathetically badly run too.

I'm sure looking for a new job is the last thing you want, but honestly? This company doesn't sound in a good place. Maybe you can find something closer to home (this is the one with the hellish commute, yes?), or at least scope out possibilities.
Jul. 27th, 2014 09:22 am (UTC)
Finding a job closer to home, or at least easier to get to, would be lovely...

It's such a shame. In the space of a few minutes, she's turned me from a highly motivated individual contributor into someone who couldn't care less -- though I still put in the work and the hours, I don't enjoy it anymore.
Jul. 20th, 2014 02:04 pm (UTC)
I had something very similar happen to me at Appleseed, although in that case, I was given a performance improvement plan, and then they sabotaged me. It was awful.

Can you dispute it? Do you have emails or any written documentation that says you completed work satisfactorily? Because it sounds to me that either your old boss wasn't doing her job properly and it was a failure of management, or they're trying to get rid of you in the worst way possible.

*big hugs* I'm so sorry this is happening.
Jul. 27th, 2014 10:04 am (UTC)
Unfortunately, no -- all her earlier praise has come over the phone, and even had I known how, who thinks to tape their manager?

So I'll be updating my CV and LinkedIn, and letting recruitment agencies know I'm open to opportunities again.

It's such a shame. I really thought I could make a difference here.
Jul. 20th, 2014 05:06 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry! Can you make contact with this Jessica person and ask for a meeting?
Jul. 27th, 2014 10:05 am (UTC)
So far, Jessica hasn't responded to any of my overtures...
Jul. 20th, 2014 11:55 pm (UTC)
That's very poor management, as you know. I'm sorry you're in this position.
Jul. 27th, 2014 10:08 am (UTC)
Indeed, it's piss-poor. And not at all what I had expected from all our dealings over the last 10 months or so.
Jul. 24th, 2014 02:46 am (UTC)
Oh dear. I'm sadly out of touch here on LJ, and was just thinking about you the other day and wondering how you were doing with your new job...and I'm very sorry to hear this news.

It does seem a very unprofessional way to do a performance review. I was so hoping they would treat you well. And I must say, as an American, that I'm embarrassed--but not entirely surprised--at their total lack of "international savvy."

Here's hoping you can turn this into something good and better than you've got right now. You deserve it!
Jul. 27th, 2014 10:11 am (UTC)
I'm sadly out of touch here on LJ,

Ha! So am I! But it's good to see you here, nonetheless!

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