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I was getting ready for bed last night, when the phone rang and I instinctively knew that I didn't want to take that call. I wish I'd listened to my inner voice...The person on the other end of the line informed me that my friend Celine had passed away quietly.

It wasn't unexpected. She'd first started to complain of a pain in her knee some years ago, but -typically for her, and against the advice of all her friends, myself included- hadn't gone to see a doctor until walking had become an agony -- by then, there was very little they could do for her. She was diagnosed with bone cancer in an advanced state. Again, typically for her, she refused all conventional treatment and sought alternative therapy. In the end, she held out almost a year longer than the oncologists had given her, and I imagine her now, thumbing her nose at them from up high.

Celine was a dancer, and she remained one even if some twenty years ago she put away her ballet shoes in favour of a new career as a physiotherapist, and if in the last two years of her life simply moving about became increasingly more difficult. She was beautiful, lithe, dark and mercury quick, and the lasting impression I have of her is of her dark, intelligent doe eyes and ready, radiant smile.

We met in Israel, where she spent an increasing amount of time as the years went on. She showed me around Jerusalem and helped me get my bearings in this strange, strange city. I think the only reason she never made aliyah was the fact that she couldn't do without her family (daughters and granddaughters) for more than 6 weeks at a stretch, and they had their lives here. Because she was away so often, we didn't see each other all that much, but when we did see each other, we spent hours catching up, talking deep into the night, about all the things that matter, and a lot of things that don't. And we spoke on the phone a lot. God! I shall miss those phone calls.

And even if her death wasn't unexpected, as I said before; coming so soon as it did on the news of poor Richard's fatal accident, it's knocked me for six, and it's hard for me to think about anything else. Least of all, what I'm going to wear to the GotR-gig tomorrow night (I still haven't the foggiest).

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jonesiexxx
May. 10th, 2004 07:14 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry.

*hugs*
gamiila
May. 10th, 2004 07:18 am (UTC)
Thank you. Hugs help.
bogwitch
May. 10th, 2004 07:18 am (UTC)
If I didn't know what to say before, I certainly don't now.

((hugs))



*Wear something comfortable and dignified.
gamiila
May. 10th, 2004 07:23 am (UTC)
Thanks for being a friend. I finally sent off that CD I promised you about an hour ago, so it should be there in a day or umpteen...

And as to what I'll wear, it'll probably be black, "because black is how I feel on the inside" (Morrissey).
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chantal87
May. 10th, 2004 07:27 am (UTC)
I am really sorry.
{{{HUGS}}}
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:08 am (UTC)
Thank you.
claudia_yvr
May. 10th, 2004 07:56 am (UTC)
I'm very sorry for your loss. Celine sounds like she lived an intense and full life, as did Richard.

{{{Gamiila}}}
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:07 am (UTC)
Celine sounds like she lived an intense and full life, as did Richard

She did, and he did, too. I sometimes wonder whatever did I do to attract, let alone deserve, such wonderfully vivacious and interesting friends -- which isn't to say that I/m not interesting and vivacious (I have my moments, after all), but still...
spiralleds
May. 10th, 2004 08:07 am (UTC)
I sorry about her passing. Losing friends hurts.
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:32 am (UTC)
Losing friends hurts

In whatever way it happens...but this of course is so very definite. Thank you though, for your kind words.
tiashome
May. 10th, 2004 08:17 am (UTC)
::hugs:: Oh no ... I'm so sorry, sweetie :-(
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:31 am (UTC)
Thank you.
yin_again
May. 10th, 2004 08:38 am (UTC)
My sympathies to you on the loss of your lovely friend.
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:11 am (UTC)
Thanks, much appreciated.
irishabastard
May. 10th, 2004 08:38 am (UTC)
I am sorry for your loss. It is especially painful to lose someone who seems so very much more alive than others.
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:22 am (UTC)
Thank you -- and it's true, Celine does seem to leave a bigger void simply because she was always so remarkably vibrant...or that is how I saw her, anyway.
vegmb
May. 10th, 2004 08:39 am (UTC)
I'm not very good with condolences. She sounds like such an amazing person. I'm very sorry for your loss.
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:18 am (UTC)
Thank you - and regardless of the fact that you think you're not very good with them, your condolences mean a lot to me.
janedavitt
May. 10th, 2004 08:41 am (UTC)
I'm so very sorry. I think sometimes you can tell if it's that sort of call...

:;hugs::
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:17 am (UTC)
Sometimes, you can...and yet you still insist on torturing yourself by picking up, don't you? But what's the alternative? Bad news travels fast, and one way or another, you're bound to find out about it. But still, I wish there was a way to avoid these kind of calls...Thanks for the hugs and the condolences.
eurothrashed
May. 10th, 2004 10:31 am (UTC)
Man. ::hugs you:: I didn't say anything before, because I didn't know what to say - still don't. I'm really, really sorry for your losses and I understand how hard it is when you lose loved ones. If you want to talk or something, I'm free.
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:24 am (UTC)
Thank you, for your kind words and offer. I may hold you to it some time!
viciouswishes
May. 10th, 2004 12:18 pm (UTC)
Sorry for your lose. *hugs*
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:14 am (UTC)
Thank you so very much. It may sound trite, but your condolences (and those of everybody else), they really do help me 'weather the storm' a bit.
julchek
May. 10th, 2004 12:24 pm (UTC)
Oh, G - I am so sorry to hear about Celine's death. You know my thoughts are with you, sweetie.

I was going to ask about how you're feeling about tomorrow night's concert, but it seems so trivial now. I do hope that you will be able to go and enjoy it even a little bit.

((hug))

Jules
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:30 am (UTC)
I was going to ask about how you're feeling about tomorrow night's concert

Not sure...somehow, it seems very unreal to think that JM's in the same country as I am, and what's more, will soon be in the same room. And musically, of course, I have no idea of what I'll be subjected to...

But, I'm determined to have a good time anyway. It's what Celine would have wanted.
calove
May. 10th, 2004 02:49 pm (UTC)
Oh, sweetheart. Never easy. She sounds like she was a very special person. You'll always have her in your heart - and although it hurts right now, keep the happy memories ((hugs))

Thinking of you
gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:25 am (UTC)
Thank you, Cass.

She sounds like she was a very special person

Yes, she was, to me; and I'm sure to a lot of other people as well. I'll miss her.
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gamiila
May. 11th, 2004 05:12 am (UTC)
Thanks for the hugs, and the sentiment. It helps.
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